*This post is part of Relish 11. I’m so proud to be participating along with other bloggers and friends.
We like to think no one knows who we are better than we do. I mean, we’ve lived with ourselves our whole lives, right? (Sometimes we might even like a break, but can’t seem to get one:)) But every once in a while we do something, or say something, or think something that catches us off guard, and we realize we just surprised ourselves. When did you surprise yourself this year? What happened?
How many times had I said that it wasn’t my thing? It was fine. I understood why people suggested it to me but it just wasn’t for me. Theoretically I could do it but I just didn’t WANT to. I was sure of that. Absolutely certain and absolutely comfortable in that certainty. Until suddenly I wasn’t.
This wasn’t a gradual process. It wasn’t a slow burn that turned into a fire that prompted me to change my mind. I’m not sure that I can pinpoint the moment when it turned but I can certainly pinpoint the day. I had brunch with friends, not unlike other days. I found myself trying the idea on for size where did *that* come from?). I couldn’t possibly, right? Then, do you think maybe I could?
And in the space of a day everything had shifted. My plans. My priorities. My lifestyle. My wishes. All altered. Never became possibly became maybe became oh hell yes became gathering all my eggs to put in this basket. I am all in here.
So now I am headed clearly down a path that was once inconceivable to me but now makes more sense to me than anything I’ve ever done in my life. It’s not an easy path. I’m playing with the odds stacked well and truly against me. But I have a lot of skin in this game and while I have one eye on the statistics my heart is fully in the realm of magic.
I’m holding faith in the magic. And I’m hoping for happy surprises to come.